just got home from toapayoh.
had lianhezaobao competition just now.
i played very badly.
haii.
not tht unexpected though, but still, disappointed nevertheless.
upon being defeated, i cried.
ohwells.
i knw i knw, there's always a loser as well as a winner in a match.
so yea, i've learnt to accept it ?
well well.
during my match, it was super duper gek-ish.
haii.
to think tht i was leading 2-0 but lost 2-3 in the end.
needless to say AGAIN, i was super sad and disappointed with myself.
my opponent was a challenging one but obviously, i expected myself to be able to play my very best and try to win and get through to the next round.
but well, sometimes, things just dint go my way.
there were a couple of lucky shots from her and it ended the match shortly.
i wont deny tht i was darn pissed upon losing but i guess, there's nothing i can do abt it.
ohwells.
during the fourth set, 0-9, when i was trailing, my eyecandy seemed amused ?
haha.
he was actually watching ?!
man, im so shocked abt it.
in the end, i got thrashed 0-11.
nice score indeed.
ohwells.
i deserved it cos i wasnt at all playing my best.
i was like being a sore loser, anyhow playing, not putting in effort at all.
sighs.
tht, it would most probably be the most regretful thing i'd done.
but well, it's over !
during the fifth set, i told myself to focus, focus, FOCUS and tht it's possible to chase back and eventually win it !
i DID put in my very best effort, but i guess, it just wasnt enough
everyone in stta was watching closely at my table.
tension seemed to have grown and increament of heart rate of everyone.
hahah.
i thank and appreciate those who were supporting me !
THANKYOU ! (:
honestly, being defeated aint a super big affair to me anymore.
i dont exactly feel so WOWW WOWW WOWW abt it.
i mean, should i put it ?
as in, i've learnt to chill abt such defeats, thinking tht losing aint the end of the world.
yea, i guess, tht's wht i wna imply.
BUT even how well i can take such defeats, it's definitely not preferred to have ppl to spite you after so.
sighs.
no comments abt it.
xinrong even said - did you slap her ?
hahah.
nice one !
and oh !
must thank her too cos she lent me her shoulder to lean on when i was crying.
dont wna really elaborate on the competition lah.
it was terribly boring..
i mean, REALLY boring !
...
watched a couple of matches and they were sian-ish.
rather waste of time there just to watch these matches.
should have just gone home, i guess ?
hmmm.
ohwells.
=/
ahhh !
i got to say this !
im so jealous of xinrong, super super super jealous !
screams.
my eyecandy unpired her match !
oh man !
so coincidental !
wht not my match ?
ahhh ahhh ahhh !
but well, even if he really does, i guess, i'd not even be able to win two sets lah.
hahah.
cos too engrossed in looking at him rather than playing properly.
lol.
how mad can i get man ?!
DARN, indeed.
ohwells.
after her match, she shook hand with him, duh !
i was jealous AGAIN !
ahhh ahhh ahhhhhhh !
she even said this to him - my friend says you're very cute !
ohmygod !
luckily he doesnt knw it's ME though..
hahah.
saved myself from embarrassment.
phew.
=P
to vent my anger, i shall vent it here and NOW !
im rather pissed off with this shitholed person.
i, indeed, appreciate it kkay !
wtf.
why must tht person go ard telling everyone this and tht ?!
i mean, come on lah, i already had tried to forgive as well as forget and here you are ...
THANKS indeed !
anyhow, going online now.
hahah.
seeyou all.
wish those who are still playing all the best of luck ! (:
you ppl can do it !
byebye.
i munched ;
at 6:44 PM